Alice Ehrmann's Diary Entry Reflecting on the End of World War II, April 21, 1945

Entry from the diary of Alice Ehrmann from April 21, 1945, in which she reflects on her feelings at the end of World War II.

April 21, 1945 [excerpted]

[. . .]Another group of 170 arrived this evening. Days under way without food, without sleep, from Eudendorf near Chemnitz — KZ. Two hundred from the Et transport, all acquaintances, Dvory, Kitty, Gerda, Cvok Winternitz, Putka, Lydia, Vera Slv and others. A wave of insane joy — complete, Eva, Tutsch, Deborah. No lice! Eight days under way from Leitmeritz to Theresienstadt [Terezín]. Waited for five days on the road, Prominents’ ghetto.

[. . .] God, this bitterness and this thankfulness, this hopelessness and desperation and eternal hope without end, pulverized and exhausted, brave and broken, and you — I feel completely empty inside; everything has been torn out, perhaps even my heart. Only a suffocating feeling, a prayer and a curse simultaneously directed at heaven. Everything, everything is over, and I can’t believe it.1

  1. Citations

    • 1 Alexandra Zapruder, ed., Salvaged Pages: Young Writers' Diaries of the Holocaust, 2nd edition (New Haven: Yale University Press, 2015) 415.

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